Good Morning Fans of the Mighty Quinn!
Sorry to disappoint you but today I’m actually sending you the note
myself and Quinn-Cam will have to return another day. Hopefully I might
have a few interesting nuggets worth the sharing in this episode. It’s a
fine Sunday Morning and having returned from a cool but comfortable morning
walk I’ve begun to read a book which was recommended to me during the Dog
Guide Users Group meeting yesterday. One of the Puppy Raisers from Guiding
Eyes for the Blind, Tom and his pup Bahama, suggested I should read a book
entitled: “Crashing Through: A True Story of Risk, Adventure, and the Man
Who dared to See.” The author is Robert Kurson and the tale is of a
formerly blind man named Mike May who is the founder of a company called
Sendero (Spanish for ‘pathway’). I love to read. Before going blind I
would digest books in many an all night reading marathon and during the
transition years of blindness I had mostly given up reading. The world of
blind ‘reading’ has for me made tremendous strides over the last few years
and the leap is going to be more significant in the future. The National
Library Service Talking Books program has provided a means for reading but
the 4 track cassette players are cumbersome and certainly have made reading
less than I had hoped. The advent of Audio books for the general public,
MP3 players and internet advances have created more avenues and one
particularly fantastic program is the Overdrive Media Player “Unabridged”
program.
http://unabridged.lib.overdrive.com
This program isn’t available to every state but it is available here in
NH. I’ve been downloading books and listening to them through my computer
for some time and it really has been a fantastic benefit. Unfortunately the
program is highly limited and despite constant additions, there is a limited
selection. I’m constantly wishing for books which aren’t there and as you
might guess by my diverse interests, there are many more untypical reading
pursuits than the program enables. Still it’s magnificent and I’m reading
away - including this morning’s recommended book. I’ll speak more soon on
the morning offering and some introspections but I want to talk about the
next phase of the reading options first. The NLS program has been steadily
attempting to migrate towards the future in which digital books will be the
main emphasis. They’ve designed a player in conjunction with a company
called Humanware. This company has already produced the commercial version
of the product, the Victor Reader Stream, which is already giving fantastic
access. A scaled down version will begin distribution to blind readers
through the National Library Service (NLS). The problem is funding for this
project is a little lower than originally anticipated and the first players
won’t hit the states until late 2008 or early 2009. The limited supply will
slowly disperse through the community and it may be several years before
everyone in the talking books program has access. In the meanwhile a
fantastic conversion process is begun which has included all new material
since 2002 being in digital format. Due to the proprietary protection
plans, only the above product can gain access to the books for download in
their pilot program. Still the title options are fantastically large
already and growing steadily so as to be fully ready when the full
transition is made. There will be a cartridge option using flash technology
for book disbursement but it will be reinforced by the download option I
foresee giving me great access to many marvelous books in the future. The
marvels of technology can be frustrating at times but in my opinion the
enhanced benefits are impressive and steady and I hope to always be inspired
to put in the effort to receive the rewards of these opportunities.
In light of the benefit I’ve received, I’ve volunteered back in November
to work with the NLS Talking books program as the Northeast representative
to the Collection Development Advisory Group which works for the NLS
program. This means I’ll be making my first plane trip with the Mighty
Quinn in May as we solo travel to Washington DC to attend the conference. I
hope I’ll be able to benefit the program and I look forward to the
adventures ahead for Quinn and myself on this journey.
Nice segue to the book reading this morning. Michael May was blinded at
age 3 through a chemical explosion. His tale as a blind man was tremendous
in his accomplishments. I’m often humbled by the accomplishments of people
in this world and one of my reactions for which I’m always grateful is that
each of these humbling realizations is also very motivational. May has had
adventures in blindness far beyond my own thus far and his management of
blindness was remarkable. Commonly folks are curious about blindness on
fronts such as whether it was better to have had sight or be blind from
childhood. Whether one would wish to see and the varying levels of hoping
for sight as interesting topics. As I often tell folks, I could not have
envisioned (pun mostly not intended) going blind and thus wouldn’t have
anticipated the manner in which I’ve personally responded to this process.
I have a pretty good understanding of my personal process at this point but
when reflecting upon growing up blind, I’m not reasonably able to expound on
reality, only opinions and observations from the outside. There is no doubt
in my mind that I, like Michael May, consider my life to be a very good
life. That statement is separate from blindness meaning that my life is
good and not simply ‘good for a blind man.’ I spend almost none of my time
wishing I had vision though if given a choice I would make considerable
efforts to have vision again. That wasn’t the initial reaction of Mr. May
and I appreciate a bit of the reason behind his thoughts. I’ll perhaps have
more insight when I finish the book but I wanted to share some thoughts this
morning on my initial response.
For me the desire to see is something in the background of my life. If
prompted to think about it I can readily be aware that I would in fact like
to see. I may not know whether it will ever be possible and certainly each
year I think the reality is less likely but still I do believe there’s a
chance, just not one that dominates my life with the hoping or wishing.
It’s somewhere between the hope of New England winning another Superbowl and
my winning the Powerball lottery which are very high hopes and very low
hopes respectively. As such I put more of my efforts towards the savoring
of my life, the love of learning and experiencing with efforts towards
improving all aspects of my self and my world. Efforts towards vision exist
in my following some of the medical journals, conversing with Doctors at
regular intervals about the opportunities but mostly the bulk of my efforts
are simply in other areas. Michael May received a stem cell treatment that
enabled a Cornea replacement to work for him - this is the opposite end of
the eye from my problem. The Cornea is the window of the eye where light
passes through and my issue is the back of the eye where the optic nerve
would collect the light and send the signals to the brain. Still the
advancement of such stem cell therapy is tremendously hopeful for
advancements that might help my situation at some point but probably still a
fair bit into the future. As such the reading notched up my hope a bit so I
gave it some attention this morning and interestingly there’s a small amount
of sadness at lifting such hope because, quite frankly, the level of
realistic lifting isn’t clear and that causes a bit of concern in that I
don’t wish to change my priorities of effort and enjoyment until it is
appropriate. Heavy things in the mind but perhaps a very appropriate time
for some introspection and some sharing on topics of blindness and reactions
to such for those of you reading the blog. I do hope you all consider full
freedom in asking me any questions about blindness, reactions towards such
and all manner of curiosities for which I might have some reasonable
observations, evaluations and/or opinion. Sometimes the questions may do me
as much benefit as the answers may provide for you.
The morning walk enhancements and dietary adjustments have the Mighty
Quinn reaching his more appropriate sleek and slender form. I think he’s
probably close to having dropped the five pounds he needed to lose. I think
by the end of next week we’ll be adjusting his food up just a bit to get him
steady and stable on the weight front. The walks have really been
tremendous and we are planning some route expansions in the near future.
There’s a new crossing near my home that has a light and a redesigned
intersection. I’ve thought about just braving it myself but next Thursday
have arranged for my friend Chris Woods and I to travel it together so I can
be sure we make the wises choices in teaching Quinn that intersection. It
will enable me to get to the Friendlees Ice Cream Parlor which for the
summer might not be an entirely bad plan as long as the walk keep my own
waist down! While the addition, soon, of my KNFB Mobile with the blind GPS
system will similarly enhance my travel options and comfort, there is no
benefit from such in learning to manage intersection crossings. They are
good supplemental information to help resolve location but not for
managing the blind walking or crossings. Those skills must be sharp
separately and involve both Quinn and I managing our respective jobs in the
work. What makes this crossing tough is that it is a four way lighted
intersection with two lanes of one way traffic in each direction of the four
lane road which I’d be crossing (Daniel Webster Highway). Between the two
roads is a divided island which means it’s a two stage crossing - to the
island, pause and across to the other side. That’s not unreasonable but
there additional challenge is on the other side. The road coming out has an
island splitting it into a ‘y’ shape. So in landing on the opposite side
there’s a wide ‘Y’ in which I’ll be in the middle. This requires me
choosing a direction to cross that street again and neither side has a
sidewalk. Both ar curved to let traffic flow faster in or out respectively.
Those situations make cars less attentive to a pedestrian crossing and also
make it less clear where we should stand/walk. That corner has the
Friendlies and if I choose the overland route we could walk up a small
grassy hill and into the parking lot. That’s something I can and probably
will manage but it is much simpler if all of this hasn’t been changed in the
intersection construction that just finished and if I can landmark it for
Quinn while having a sighted person to augment that process. There are
probably about five such challenging intersections in Nashua for which I
could benefit from learning with a sighted Guide. I’m willing to manage
them alone if they are needed but thus far this is the first one for which
the benefit of learning it is high enough to me to get a friend to travel
it. That said, if any of you care to visit and walk a bit we could work
through the others over time!
Quinn and I had three trips to Concord this week. Two were made with
John Spallone as we went to NHAB for a Committee meeting on the Walk and
then a Donor Luncheon. The other was yesterday’s Guide Dog Users Group
meeting which we managed with Bill LeBlanc one of the very helpful and
philanthropic Puppy Raisers for Guiding Eyes for the Blind. Bill brought
his six month old German Shepherd puppy, Lyndon, along for the trek and this
very well behaved Puppy in training was an impressive lad. The three trips
to Concord and a current opportunity had me thinking about the travel in NH.
NHAB has asked if I’d accept a Nomination for the Board of Directors.
Several of the members have talked to me about this opportunity and I really
do wish to be able to help out the organization. The issue is that travel
to Concord simply isn’t an easy option. Located roughly 40 miles north of
Nashua along a direct Highway route would seem to suggest options but alas
there is no steady running bus route. I could take an hourly bus to Boston
(the exact wrong direction) and then take one of the bus options from there
through Manchester and then on to Concord. That little trip would be
roughly 3 hours one-way. So in perfect timing I could do the journey from
my city to Concord in six hours of round trip travel. Of course this
doesn’t count the likely 30 minutes of travel to those bus stations and
slack time to ensure I don’t miss the bus any of the ways. That makes for a
pretty full day even before any meeting! Here is where I hope that someday
the ability to teleconference can extend such that the trip can be made more
reasonable even while I start to explore whether NH has any ride-share
programs that might allow me to car-pool with someone already making that
journey. That’s a project for this week, if not, I wonder if Craig’s List
might not have an inspiration for the creation of a Ride-share internet
facility. Given the gas prices of today that might be a worthwhile project
for sighted and blind alike!
So in the various journeys to Concord and around Nashua, I’ve had the
Mighty Quinn working his paces and I cannot stress enough how well he’s
managing with me. I haven’t had a hitch in traveling with him in quite some
time and that really is a credit to how well we’ve bonded and learned to
communicate. We are even seeing great strides on his independence as I’m
routinely taking opportunity to make him forge ahead when he’d rather follow
someone with us. So far the results are he’s figured out when I want this
and after a pause to see if I’m sure he’s marching ahead confidently.
Confidence is such a vital part of these guys work and much of that is
conveyed to them through we the handler. I’m generally a fairly confident
man and much as Quinn’s personality has really begun to shine into a fun
loving and sociable pup, his confidence in his work has grown tremendously
as well. All his social desires haven’t changed his behavior. He doesn’t
solicit or initiate but happily takes the opportunity when someone has asked
and I’ve given him permission to say hello. I’ve even noticed that when
someone asks Quinn tightens up his heal and lifts his head towards me
knowing that his demonstration that he’s waiting my approval enhances his
likely-hood of getting the “Ok” to say hello. Thus will the tail drubbing
commence as he greets some new or old friend.
I’ll end with the Friday night tale of the tail. Incredibrew is a local
Brew-it-yourself business which I quite like. Every six weeks they hold a
wine tasting and usually add something to flair the event. This Friday it
was Wine and Cheeses from around the world courtesy of Trader Joe’s on the
cheeses. To get to this place I need to take a path up to that very busy
Daniel Webster Highway, walk along it for a short bit and then do a tough
crossing with a light and busy parking lot. I haven’t walked that path
since last year but took Quinn of the fantastic memory to it. During a
morning Walk I’d shown him the entrance again, verifying I could find it,
and then on Friday we made the trip just as rain drops began to fall. He
found the path for me quickly and we navigated it with ease. We walked
along the edge of the road and he was walking steady but with a trace of
caution that told me he wasn’t sure where I wanted to go. When we reached
the curb by the light his tail wagged mightily. He aligned me slightly to
the left which told me he’d found the line he wanted to do the tricky
crossing and with a moments listen to ensure it was the right time I said
“Quinn Forward.” He surged and the pace was that of my confident and
enthused pup. He’d figured out not only where to cross but realized where
we were heading even though it was still a fair distance away. We strode
with both of us confident we’d passed a little adventure challenge. Sure
enough, smooth and steady with all the subtle sidewalk adjustments for the
store fronts. We got there in under 20 minutes and he was very proud of
himself. Charlee Bear proud and the evening was much fun. Six bottles of
new wine craftings were brought home to age and I’m sure we’ll repeated that
walk again soon. Not bad for a route he’d only done once with a sighted
guide near us to help ensure we did it safe. Now, one year later, he
repeated it to perfection on our own. Quite a pup - we are ready for more!
Randy
& the Mighty Quinn